A blip...

So, even though I got an award and a big loss this week, it seems to have set my levels of motivation to zero.  I haven't been on plan at all. I have binged on the foods I used to eat frequently and without even considering the syns. I have had two other weeks like this on this journey so far. I am weighing-in in a couple of hours and I know that I am in for a gain, but you know what... I am not guilting myself over it.

I have done exceptionally well so far and sometimes I think I need to have these weeks where I can let myself go and I can have all the food I miss. As long as I go back on plan tomorrow then I think it's ok. I think the difference is that in the past, I haven't seen weight loss as a long term thing. It has been a case of cheating as much as I can to get as much off the scales. Now, I am more focused on the long-term. I want to be thinner, I love how it feels to try something on and know it used to be too tight to wear; I like being able to paint my toes with ease and I love it when people ask 'have you lost weight?!'.

So tonight, after weigh-in and facing up to the consequences off my binge on the scales, I am going to Tesco and getting back on track. I have to. I need to.

So, I am not beating myself up. I am not going to wallow in the guilt of eating junk food- that's where my emotional eating comes into it's own!! I am going to put it down as a blip on the overall journey of getting to target.

Sian xx